Life has presented an opportunity to practice. With a particular piece of content, conditioning demands a solution, a path forward, a resolution that makes everyone happy. Conditioning desperately wants me to believe others are expecting me to deliver on these demands. Practice has revealed that my conditioned response to those demands has never resulted in clarity or presence. Going unconscious to the process has only resulted in suffering. So rather than respond to conditioning or urgency, I turn my attention back to the moment, trusting that I am adequate to paying attention so that I might be present for whatever Life drops in. I am learning to love “I don’t know.”
I’ve seen that I have to drop my relationship with conditioning to be present to “I don’t know” and to whatever clarity drops in. That has created an opening for further clarity and the ability to communicate compassionately with others involved in this content. Even better, I get to see that the awful consequences, the ones conditioning promises will happen if I don’t follow the program, never happen. Instead, I’m left with calmness, openness, and deeper communication and connections.
Gasshō,
Bob